Rational

Every calculation had been run, but there simply wasn’t enough food for the crew to survive the journey.

The first six months had gone smoothly. The spaceship had safely exited their solar system, and they were on track to reach the new planet in another year. Then the hull was breached by errant debris.

Decompression was immediate. The crew’s lives were saved by the security system, which immediately sealed off the damaged section – the same section that contained their supplies for the journey.

The 8 surviving crew members were each vital to the mission. While each wondered if they could have gotten by if one of them had been lost in the accident, not a one of them could now be allowed to starve.

The botanist kept at work, growing as much food as they could, but it wouldn’t be enough for everyone. Either all would starve slowly, or they would need to supplement.

Not a member of the crew will say to this day which of them first suggested that they look to “other supplies”,but in time their precious cargo, vital for the colonisation of the new planet, became a necessary sacrifice.

80% of the cargo survived the journey. 20% had to be vented out to prevent illness and disease.

The official report listed a “failure with the refrigeration system”, but if inspected, not one of the sleeping pods were faulty.

Connected

The stranger bumping into her side barely caught Lana’s attention. She was in her own word, listening to music over Bluetooth earphones.

“Disconnected”

The music had stopped. She felt for her phone, wondering if the battery has died. It wasn’t there.

Then she remembered the person who has bumped into her left side. The same side as her handbag, the front pocket of which had been holding her phone.

Lana looked around, but couldn’t see anyone suspicious. She couldn’t remember what the stranger looked like, or if she had seen him at all. She had been too lost in her own world.

It took two hours to make a report to the police. She knew it wouldn’t achieve much, but at least when her mother asked, she could say she had done it.

It was dark by the time Lana got home. Her scarf was tight around her neck and chin, arms deep in pockets. She was so cold she found herself placing her wireless earphones back in, to shield what little they could from the cold.

Lana waited until the last second to find her keys, reluctantly taking one hand from her pocket and wishing she’d worn gloves.

The keys weren’t in their usual place. She normally placed them in the second pocket inside her bag, so that they wouldn’t jingle.

She continued feeling for them. Maybe she’d left them at work?

Within the second that Lana considered breaking a window, she changed her mind. The front door was unlocked. As she walked inside, Lana tried to remember: did she leave her keys at home, rushing out without locking the door?

But no, Lana remembered fiddling with the key chain at work. Then… she had been in a rush to leave work. She had thrown then into the front pocket of her bag. Next to her phone.

There was a creak down the hall, just barely covered by the sound from her earphones.

“Reconnected”

Upon Reflection

It was not a terribly unusual request for a portrait. A black and white drawing, as realistic as possible: “warts and all” as the client requested.

8pm was a little late to be starting a one-session sketch, but the client offered to pay extra. He was unable to come in working hours due to his work but was willing to stay as late as possible.

I didn’t bother pointing out that it was actually my willingness to stay late that was the issue. Mostly because the money offered had already solved it.

So I sat in my studio at 8pm, sipping a coffee that had been a drinkable temperature an hour ago.

He came precisely on time, the sharp knocks on the door preceded by the sound of commanding steps. He was handsome, which is always disappointing for me. Symmetry and smooth skin were harder to capture. No familiar landmarks to make the drawing more recognisable, no obvious shapes to pluck from his outline. I shook his hand and asked him to take his seat, already lit.

I offered water, which he politely declined. So we began.

An outline, first. As I drew the basic oval and lines, I asked what made him want his portrait. He seemed surprised at the question and tried to speak without moving. I assured him it was part of the process and that he could indeed move around, within reason.

For me, the process has never involved silence and a perfectly still subject. As I memorise the details on a person’s face I need to know how the parts move together: is there a dimple when he smiles? A worn line in the forehead when he frowns? Eyes that glisten too quickly when distressed?

But first we start with the outline.

The client had meant to do this for a while, he told me. An impending birthday was a convenient deadline, so he made the appointment. I asked how soon the deadline was, and was told midnight. I joked that it was a good thing he hadn’t wanted oil paints. I decided not to ask his age. Anyone with akin that clear took pride in their appearance, which usually meant they’d make me guess how old they are.

A little more detail next: features marked in place, but not yet his. Where was he from?

He had lived in this city for years, but he didn’t call it home. He wasn’t sure he ever would. His original home was long gone, developed over, renamed, forgotten. He gave me the name of a town, but I cannot remember the word. German, perhaps, although he had no accent.

I began to bring in more details, confident lines covering grey outlines. Was this portrait for himself, or a gift?

It was for himself. A birthday gift of sorts. He laughed then, and I quickly took in the fine lines at the corners of his eyes, putting them onto the paper. He did not show his teeth when he smiled, I noted. I drew him with a closed mouth, one side raised. It was easy enough to get him in a good mood in conversation, but I needed to concentrate, so I brought out my crowd-pleaser. As the client browsed through the folio of pet portraits I had been commissioned for, I shaded in high cheekbones and ears that came to a slight point.

At the height of his joyful review (a white, fluffy cat in a jacobean ruff) I asked as casually as possible if he wanted any scars left out. He paused, but then nodded. Fortunately I had already captured his expression, as after that he placed the folio down and stared silently at the wall behind me. I shaded in the scars on his neck.

A few more silent minutes and the portrait neared completion. I mentioned that I needed to check something, and reached under the table to grab a hand mirror. The client stood bolt upright, demanding to know what I was doing.

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The Broadcast (Part 1)

I wouldn’t have bought the radio if I knew it actually worked. It was a gorgeous old thing, all curves and panels, like a cathedral window. It caught my eye in the antique stores window, brass knobs glinting atop elegantly carved wood.

I immediately had plans to gut it and install Bluetooth speakers. All the classiness, with none of the fuss, I thought. Certainly the price and the handwritten “sold as-is” warning on the tag made me think it couldn’t have any functional value.

I was surprised when the storekeeper picked it out of the display and a new power cord uncoiled from beneath it, bright white in contrast to the grainy wood of the radio. Someone must have gone to some effort to get this radio working. I remarked as much to the storekeeper, but was meet with a shrug and asked if I needed a box.

By the time I got home, I was excited to try it out. I hadn’t listed to the radio since my parents used to drive me to school. I now had no need (or money) for a car, and while I thought that there must be an app for the radio, it didn’t have the same novelty.

It took me an embarrassing ten minutes and a resigned web search before I found out how to turn the radio on. I was half expecting voices from its apparent era: fast talking radio hosts, smoking between reading ads for baby morphine and housewife amphetamines. But it was a disappointingly cheerful man giving the weather report. It wasn’t even right. He said that the rain was expected to continue until Tuesday – it hadn’t rained for weeks.

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Peer Pressure

Daryl stared at the coffee, watching the larger bubbles pop amongst the foam. He tried not to notice the stares of the other customers of the coffee shop.

They had been in line behind him, each ordering the same as him. A latte, skim milk, and a chocolate brownie. He only noticed when the barista drew attention to it, making a joke about us making her job too easy. Then, as Daryl sat at his usual table in the corner, the group of four sat at the larger table in the centre of the café. He had thought it bizarre that they crammed around one side of the table, but thought they wanted to share food. But they all stared. The barista brought out the coffees, his first, then theirs. He took a hesitant sip, testing the heat, before putting it down.

Clink.

Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink.

He looked up at the synchronised sound of 4 cups being placed onto saucers. The four stared back, all still holding onto their mug handles, as he was. He tried a smile, which was returned after a moment across four faces.

It happened again, minutes later when the coffee had cooled.

Clink.
Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink.

He looked up again to see the four faces staring at him. He could not focus on any one of them, the uniformity of their attention was too intense.

He tried not to look, taking larger sips of his coffee and trying to place the cup down quietly, so he didn’t hear them copying him.

Clink.
Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink.

He thought it must have been a joke. While pretending to check his phone, Daryl looked up at the group’s table. It was empty except for their orders. It must have been cleared. Well then, he thought with the spiteful spirit of an older sibling, you can’t copy everything. He took a sugar packet out from the holder on his table and poured the sugar into the half-full coffee. He looked up to see all four miming shaking an almost empty packet into their coffees.

So it was a joke at his expense, Daryl thought. He was in two minds: he could finish the coffee, take his brownie away and leave these idiots behind, or he could savour them until closing and see how long it takes from the four idiots to get bored.

He downed the rest of his coffee.

Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink.

They were much more on the ball that time. There was almost no difference in timing.

Daryl was about to take the plated brownie to the counter, to ask for a container, when he instead found himself reaching for the fork. Across the room, the group did the same. He took the bite his hand offered. He chewed and put the fork back down.

Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink.

He looked up, against his every instinct. Four faces grinned at him. Daryl grinned back, rictus grins matching, apart from the glistening of tears on his cheeks.

*

A week later, Susan sat at a café, wondering why a group of people would try to fit around the same side of a table.

She put her coffee down.

Clink.

Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink. Clink.

Imposter

It was thrilling, sitting in the crowded restaurant, waiting for my date.

Her photos caught my attention immediately: her soft, wavy hair resting atop heavily tattooed shoulders. Twinkling blue eyes and a small smile. I immediately matched with her, wondering what would happen.

Those weren’t my date’s photos. I had met Amanda weeks ago. The blonde and went on 3 dates before I ended things.

But now I waited for ” Samantha”, keen to find out what the scam was.

I had picked a local restaurant I regularly visited. If the point was to waste my time and stand me up I’d come out ahead.

As I waited, I mulled on my few dates with Amanda. She had told me the meanings of the vine and rose tattoos around her shoulders. She tossed her hair behind her should so many times I wanted to tell her to tie it back. She had bored me.

But I remembered her fondly, in the end. We had what fun we could together, and I always treasure those memories.

I kept an eye on the door. My bet was that a blonde would come through them. She would be a little older, fatter or less attractive than my Amanda. Claim the photos were old, or in bad lighting. I planned to play along, just have some fun and make some new memories.

She looked exactly like the photos.

Tossing her hair back as she looked around, I was so surprised that my date was able to approach and sit down before I could react.

“Hello again” she said in Amanda’s voice. Huskier, deeper than I remembered.

I went to stand, but she grabbed my arm tightly. Too tight. Amanda never had that kind of strength.

My arm was pulled across the table, drawing all of my body closer to her. To anyone else, it would look like a quiet conversation between lovers.

I saw her tattoos, intricate and expansive. I saw her unblemished skin, without scars or marks where I knew there should be. Where wounds should be. In those places I instead saw the tattoos not quite aligning: lines separated, flowers cut in bisected and not quite made whole. As though the skin healed perfectly, but was pulled over a different shape.

As her smile widened, I saw the corners of her mouth bleed, like the skin was pulled too tight.

As her nails drew blood, I realised I was wrong. That this person didn’t look exactly like the photos. Those sparkling blue eyes, which I last saw glassy and unblinking, which I closed myself, were a different colour.

The Perfect Roommate

I have never met my roommate.

His door was always locked and he never spent time in the common areas. The only signs of life were the light under his door and the cycle of labelled foods in the kitchen being used and replaced.

It was odd at first, but I grew used to it. I might have even considered our relationship friendly, in an odd way. He communicated to me with notes, always typed for clarity. I responded with the neatest handwriting I could manage. He offered me the use of his kitchenware, even replacing my old knife set. His note said he’d noticed that the wooden block was moulding and the blades were dull.

He never pushed for a formal lease, which was a relief as I was supposed to be the only tenant.

I thought I was lucky to have found him so easily. I posted online and his was the most polite response, and said he had the deposit in cash, so I agreed. I deleted the post immediately after, in case my landlord found out. Of course, I was away the only day he could move in, so I left the door unlocked. Why, yes I do think I told him the dates I was unavailable first.

I don’t know where he has moved now. I’m not sure when he moved out. I only noticed when I saw the door was cracked open and got curious. It was so clean, apart from those dark stains on the carpet.

No, I don’t know what happened to my old knives.

You believe me, don’t you?

The Perfect Day

It had been the perfect day.

Her white dress was immaculately pressed and fit perfectly. Her hair and makeup were exactly as she had envisioned. The cars were on time and her bridal party followed their steps precisely as she had instructed.

The groom as well-dressed in the suit she had selected, and he repeated the vows she had chosen. She was proud to be his wife and as they travelled to the reception venue, she thought that everything would go just as smoothly as the ceremony.

Everything went according to plan, right up until the cake cutting. She had told him she would not abide him trying to shove cake into her face. He had told her he understood. He had promised he would not. But in that moment, egged on by relatives, he dabbed it on her nose.

It had been the perfect day until that moment. Ever the perfect bride, she had laughed and excused herself to clean up.

Later that night, in their honeymoon suite, she used strips torn from her once-pristine dress to wipe up the mess. Their honeymoon luggage was now packed full to bursting, its original contents placed in the rubbish bags the concierge had brought up. She hoped that the bags lining the inside of the luggage would not leak. Blood was so hard to clean.

She had been so close this time. She was certain that the next time it would be perfect.

A Good Neighbour

Bill has always been an excellent neighbour. He kept to himself mostly, but he would give you the shirt off his back if he thought it would make you happy.

It was odd, Steve supposed, that he still lived alone. It was a big house, so he must be doing well at his job. Something in finance, Bill would murmur if asked. He was also handsome by any standards, although his smile always seemed a bit forced.

Still, it was surprising when the police came by. They asked Steve if he had noticed any odd behaviour, or if he could recall any large garden projects Bill had been working on. They wouldn’t explain what they were looking for, but Steve had seen enough TV to have a suspicion. He told them that he wasn’t aware of anything.

That afternoon, Steve stared from the kitchen window at the garden shed his friendly neighbour had helped build months back. Bill had insisted on pouring the concrete for the base and was even willing to pay for the supplies, as he “could use the practice for later”. Due to his odd working hours he had worked on it at night, so Steve did not need to help.

The amount of dirt left displaced had seemed a little much, he had thought. Still, it would be a shame to ruin such good work. Plus, Steve had kept the bloodied earring he had found in the dirt pile, just in case Bill wouldn’t agree to help build the pool he was planning.

Guest

“May I have your name?”

The figure in the hut’s doorway smiled politely, but slightly too widely.  The hand holding the door open had too many joints in the fingers.

“No, but I am called Ella”

Ella had been told enough stories about strange beings in the forest to fall for so simple a trick. But she had been caught unaware by the first storm the forest had felt in her lifetime and decided it was worth the risk to get out of the rain.

“Well met, Ella. You may enter. May I have your coat?”

“Only if I may have yours”

The resulting smile did not meet the figure’s eyes. Ella resolved not to ask their name. She did not want to know what they might ask for in exchange.

“I do not believe it would fit you. Or suit your needs”

The being gestured to a coatrack which held a coat made of moss. As Ella looked, a mushroom bloomed upon the shoulder and some small, many-legged shapes skittered across the back.

“You are right, it is best we retain our own coats. May I stay the night here? I will leave once it stops raining”

“Yes. You shall remain until the rain stops”

Ella smiled and shook the outstretched hand. There had been no cost required. All she had to do was mind her words and her manners until it was time to leave.

When she awoke to find it still raining, Ella peered out of the window to see when it might stop. There were no clouds where she could see, yet the rain poured atop the hut’s roof.

The being hummed as they prepared breakfast, loudly placing a kettle atop the stove.

“It may be a while before the kettle boils, my dear guest. Time flows so slowly here”

Ella continued staring, seeing the dark outline of a cloud directly above the hut.

“Why, the last rain only just stopped falling yesterday morning. Who knows how long this one will last?”